I loved fairy tales when I was younger. I loved that there was always a knight in shining armour and a princess who was rescued. I loved the thought of kingdoms and palaces and woods and forest animals. I lived vicariously through these stories.
I am the princess who was misunderstood and banished from the kingdom. I am the fair maiden who wonders the dark woods. I am the girl who lives with the forest animals. I am brave and beautiful. I am gentle and kind. I feel sad. I am alone.
Then one day a knight in shining armour discovers me lying in a bed of woodland flowers. Immediately he falls deeply in love with me. He rescues me. He kisses me and brings me back to life. He lifts me onto his magnificent white stallion and we speed through the woods into his bright, glorious kingdom. His people receive me with open arms and they fall in love with me too. I become a gracious queen and he becomes a fearless warrior.
He slays dragons and fights off evil emperors. He conquers every challenge he faces. He is fierce, he is mighty, yet he is loving and fair. We live happily ever after.
His powerful love for me and my undying commitment to him is always the great force. Oh how I wished that this was true for me!
But, actually it is; –
I have wandered the black woods afraid and alone
Darkness I know as I know fear
Frightened I trample the brown mossy paths, entangled
Senses heightened I hear every sound, shadows
Dark, dense, blind, I don’t see
But brave, I am
Banished but brave
I fall down, tired, tears
Shadows grow but then fragments of light
Shards above the tree tops
Fade, grow, fade, illuminate
I grasp the brightness it pierces me
Pain I love, I feel, I know
Alive, awaits the stallion, I ride
Muscles ripple, strength, movement
I have become the stallion
Nostrils flare towards my kingdom
I am the prince, I am the maiden
I am all the good and bad I am
The kingdom I know embracing me
Around me people, I talk I am goodness
Light is mine I dance
Too much, I swirl, no grace
Red flares prick my soul, no blood
Conquer the kingdoms taking spoils to moss
I trample wildly snared by thorns
I become the darkness
Banished is me
I am warrior, I am maiden, I am stallion, I am warrior, I am maiden, I am lost, I see light