While I was pondering what I should name this blog, I came across a quirky little post that said, “I don’t have ducks. Or rows.I have squirrels at a rave.” This amazingly accurate quote by Lori Hetteen perfectly describes the the chaos that is my brain, so thank you Lori!
I have often felt overwhelmed by the fact that I am ‘all over the show’. My brain does its own crazy thing most of the time and this frustrates me no end. My ducks aren’t ever in a row; my thoughts spin, jump and dive. Admittedly this happens at differing speeds, but these crazy thoughts certainly don’t line themselves up and present a smart, ordered front.
I am never zen. However once the raving squirrels have exhausted themselves and run me ragged, I collapse into a dark, cold, lonely burrow, desperately trying to hide myself from the world for a while.
This has been my life; rave, fall, rave, fall, rave, fall.
I do know now that I am not alone and even though this crazy dance may be frowned upon by some, there are many others affected by Bipolar disorder, who do the same crazy dance as I do.
My intention for this blog is to speak openly and frankly about my life pre and post diagnosis. I hope that by doing this, the message of being unashamed and not alone will find its way into the hearts of the many who are affected by Bipolar Disorder.